night night

Its really late and well past my bedtime, and yet I find myself logging into Blogger, so write you a note. All is well here, and remains calm and stable. We continue to meet with Drs. when scheduled, and anticipate next test or appointments.

In addition to this, we're just living life. Its really odd to me, to be so steady now with the MG and MS that I tend to forget sometimes, that these two hang out with me daily. It has happened before, that I worry I will forget. My fear...as soon as I forget what its like to live with the symptoms, they'll quickly rejoin me. Not likely, but a quiet fear we all carry, with regards to so many different things in our life. Its the one or two things that sit quietly in the dark corner of our brains, just waiting for you to ignore them. If you pay attention to 'it' on a steady frequency, all remains calm. Turn your back for a moment, and 'it' sneaks out of the corner and onto the main stage. "Tah dah"

While feeling so much better, I've also overwhelmed myself with life. Feeling a bit over committed and stressed about missing deadlines or letting people down. So, what do you do when this happens? Well, I tend to wall up and protect myself by disengaging. Creating quiet. Release control..again. This crazy control thing is what landed me here to begin with.

Ok, so maybe this was more of a late night mind dump. Simply trying to remember to stand up and enjoy each aspect of life, with or without symptoms, and to relax about it at the same time. Eh well...sleep will help. G'Night