....“just write it down” is all I can hear and as I get closer
to the keyboard and progress, something slows me. I’ve started by just opening a Word file,
which in my mind is the same now as finding a napkin to write on…only easier for
me.
Today is Thursday, and today is good. It’s a powerful day. There are SO MANY
awesome things moving around us that it feels overwhelming. We’ve had a year of transition, but more intensely
the past 2 months have been heavy, and are beginning to feel less so.
Driving home from dropping our daughter off at school today, my
heart was doing a few flips and my lungs could feel cool air. Deep breaths are being consumed this morning,
because fall is here…for today.
Last year this time, we were managing a few things, just
like everyone else.
Pneumonia was ever present, and led to 5 rounds of antibiotics and the depression that
comes with pneumonia (its real y'all!). Visits with 2 different ENTs resulted in the same opinion: Let's carve out my sinus cavity so ‘maybe’ added airflow helps. It ‘might’ minimize the impact of the allergies. We had exhausted my allergist, confused my 2 neurologists, and frustrated
my pulmonologist. I considered asking for help from the pediatrician but
left them to deal with our girl's allergies and ears. Lee was stay-home-dad last
year, my job was just terminated, and we were interested to see how we would traverse
the holiday season.
Today, all is perfectly fine and with reflection I will boldly say EACH step in that
season of life has been a BLESSING! Sometimes changes we can’t
make for ourselves, are made for us. Hurdles we encounter become beautiful lessons. Relationships, career, health, etc. Embrace each shift. Go with the flow. Tuck and
roll.
My daily devotional is a year-round devotional which is timeless. You can read the same book each year. Anyone who has this devotional, is
reading the same entry each day. I began using this, last year, around this
time. Today I am reading my scribbled notes from last year. Powerful to see those notes, and
to reflect on the words in the text which grabbed my attention then vs now.
Last year, it was made clear that I needed to be still and
sit with this ‘season’ of life. In the next months my need for control over what was ahead, was tested. My faith was being stretched. It was not possible to fully
understood at the time, and still don’t, the magnitude of what was taking
place. We were walking into a new family model, new health status, new financial
boundaries, new energy, renewed faith.
This year, my health is insanely good and I’m blessed to be
able to share with others, what was shared with me. I have recently heard the molds
are bad again this year…funny…I’ve not noticed.
Work found Lee at the just right time, and before
that time, our family was just that, a family. Precious moments together, building
relationship, foundation and strength together. We continue to be stretched and
grown daily, and respectfully embrace each step.
We’ve said goodbye to our family pet, we are parting ways
with my beloved Ford, we are shifting to big kid environments and learning how
to improve our communication, we are enjoying now and embracing what we have,
we are remembering to be present…in the present.
I’ve just wrapped up a phone call with an amazing woman in
my life, and through this call I am reminded that each person and experience in
our lives is rich in value. Our relationship formed almost 20 years ago, and to
see where we are now is amazing. So much has been experienced! To reflect on where
we’ve been is precious. To praise together is filling. Learn from each other is
rich. To cheer each other on until our next call months from now, is
priceless.
You have right now. Last year was last year. Reflect on the time. What did you
learn? Who helped changed you? Who have you shared love with? Has your definition
of love changed? Have you learned better how to also love yourself? Did you
remember to make eye contact with yourself this morning? Did you look at your reflection and smile? Do it now. Find a spoon if you have too, and check out your smile.
You’re doing a great job. Today is Thursday, and it is a powerful day.
