Day 5: Your presence is present enough

Day 5 of Christmas, and 'tis the season to be jolly, and to shop, and to cook, and to create cards, and to make cookies, and to see lights, and to anticipate forgotten gifts, and to attend festive parties, and to survive the mall, and to take naps, and to spend time with family, and to wear layers, and to spend more time with family, and to forgetfully miss that one appointment, and to be dizzy with details, and to feel overwhelmed and out of control, and to try and regain control, and to melt down, and to sometimes cry or maybe yell.  Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Feeling festive?  Feeling joyous? Feeling tired? Feeling overwhelmed?  Feeling crowded? ...Yes.

I'm trying something new today and I'm typing on this post throughout the day...to see if it is possible to remain PRESENT.  I'm blessed to do life with Godly women, who I can really share emotion with, and recenter myself.  Last night was that night. Day 5, and I share the joy of being present.
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I admit that I am on autopilot right now and working to survive the holiday craze.  Then it smacked me in the face yesterday, while day dreaming of my happy places (Day 4), that I need to spend just a little time being present in my world.  Slowing down to really appreciate the alarm, and the reality that I've been gifted another day, and that my eyes can see the glaringly red numbers, that my ears can hear that horrible buzz teasing me to leave the warm covers, that my feet can feel the cold tile in the bathroom.

Its ok if my Christmas cards are late. Its ok if my gift shopping is incomplete.
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I'm grateful for the chaos that comes with a job; the energy everyone shares in striving to do their best and keep customers happy, while balancing families, pets, and tasks; the teamwork that take place when everyone goes above and beyond in anticipation of the holiday and end of year close.

Its ok if my grocery list is put together later.  I have time to focus.
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It is lunch time now. Lee and I completed a Christmas errand then picked up lunch to eat at our desks.  The weather outside is really beautiful and I'm glad we had time to spend together, and that we completed another item on the lists which wants to sneak up and scream at me.

hum... I'll stop writing on this post now.  I think my joy of presence is more about the joy of giving thanks for the things that I choose to let stir me up.